My Journey on Lacking Joy and Contentment and Lessons from the Apostle Paul’s Life
Excerpt from author: My life has been filled with many hardships and difficult circumstances. All of my life I have been seeking to have joy and contentment. Even after being saved, I still had difficulty with joy and contentment. I had a difficult upbringing, became a mother at sixteen, was an alcoholic and on drugs by the age of eighteen, and lived a very hard and rebellious lifestyle. At twenty-five, I was saved by reading Joyce Meyer’s, “Beauty for Ashes.” BUT my life did not get easier like I thought, but spiraled into difficult trials. Soon after I got married, I witnessed my grandmother and grandfather suffer physically and eventually die back to back, my parents divorced after thirty-five years together after the devastating hurricane Katrina hit our area, my only son began to get involved in drugs and was admitted to a psychiatric hospital when he was in the eighth grade for overdose on cold medicine and suicidal thoughts. I learned my son was living a homosexual lifestyle. My son continued to use drugs and was admitted to two different Christian Rehabs before his eighteenth birthday. I endured dysfunctional family members on my side of the family and my husband’s side of the family for years, it was one crisis or need after another, during all of this we tried to get pregnant and I was unable to conceive, and endured fertility treatments and surgeries. We opted to do foster-adopt but the baby boy we kept for a month was given another chance for his parents to get their acts together. I have had some health issues come up as well. Currently, I am waiting for my son’s deliverance from the lifestyle he is in, turning forty and being content there may not be any more children, and desiring my family and my husband’s family salvation. I am learning about contentment and joy despite my circumstances. It has been a long twelve years of enduring difficulties, but I know it is possible that no matter what your circumstances in life are, you can have true joy and contentment. I have learned the hard way to be content no matter what is happening in my life and that it is not based on my circumstances. It has been a journey to enter into a place of joy and contentment. I had to grieve, cry, write, and even have candid talks with God. But true joy and contentment are possible even when your heart has been broken and you have suffered greatly.
|You can have joy and contentment despite your circumstances.|